father, don't you know, you have made me into a quiet man ... look at me

i'm not a drama queen. i'm a dramatic character.

"... i'm always too aware of the effect i'm making. i'm afraid people will lose interest if i don't keep tap-dancing. my whole mechanism is about charming people. and fixing things that can't be fixed."

Armistead Maupin, 'The Night Listener'

[56. chain smoking]