baby jesus sleeps in my כִּפָּה

just when i had brilliant ideas for posts, and was about to write & send holiday wishes, my keyboard broke. blimey. but surprisingly, i got a new one as a christmas present. cordless. now i can write lying in my bed. of course, i'd have to redecorate the room first.

i had plenty of plans for the spare time : revising grammar, finally studying phonetics, learning history, extending vocabulary. all those little dirty pleasures like : reading books, playing games, sleeping, things i normally don't have time for. and i even planned to read this here website thingy from the very beggining [what can i say, i am a huge fan ].

instead, i ate a lot. and won a lot at monopoly. i had no mercy.

i also took some quizzes; it turns out i am : superman , spring , greek goddes aphrodite , 60% evil but still learning and a unicorn. i forgot what type of anime character do i have and what american accent i speak with.
christmas is so much fun.

i also won a lot at monopoly.

and there were candles, and californian wines. and great, long-time internet chats with a new great friend.

i've never send so many holiday wishes as this year , but later met with a very positive reaction. someone even called me 'babe'.

it's very, very late , and as usually - i'm not sleeping. i had problems with my iPod, fortunately everything's fine now. making a new playlist was necessary, unfortunately . d'oh! i wouldn't survive a day without my iPod.

i still need to pack my things and do some other stuff. my train leaves in about 5 hours, and that means waking up in 4.

i'll be visitting my family in the country, in a completely different world, off-line. that means prejudice. and discrimination. and bigotry. that means i'll be entertaining my family.

i fell in love again

bloody brilliant ! absolutely hilarious !

very , very sufjan stevens !

[ after a completely fucked up week it gave me so much fun and joy ! made me laugh and cheer up * ! nothing , nothing's going to take this away from me , not a single toxic person ( no, this is not about you ) , not a single threat ! hell no ! ]

*that's also thanks to shopping , new clothes and a new bag.

new york , new york

" But there, glittering in the distance of my mind, was New York City. It seemed to me that New York was the place where misfits could fit.
[...]
And I walked around in trance, daydreaming about Manhattan. Trying to see if I could picture myself there among the skyscrapers and hot dog vendors.
[...]
Of course I can make it in New York City. "

Augusten Burroughs

( thank you )

the promised land

why are all the bears there , why aren't they here ?
why am i all alone here ?
just like the people who migrated in the past in search of a better life , i'll migrate [fly] to find them all , find all the bears.
they are not here.




***
[ dear princess a. , i think i'm really in love ]

the night was always ending

i just recalled that during my 'first time' i was wearing an anathema t-shirt [ hey , everybody has a dark past ] , i guess that's why i've always been a dinner whore instead of being in a relationship , that's why i'm now unhappy in love [ broken heart , etc. ] .
a curse , i tell you.
***
at least it was a good day today , but it had to be , drugs make everyone's days better and i picked mine in the morning from the local pharmacy [medicine makes perfect ] .

rave on!

i think i could use a fag [have a guess]

***

i don't have enough money for gay drinks

oh I am loving always holding

i think i have a crush on bonnie 'prince' billy

to be at his concert , to listen to 'cursed sleep' while holding O.'s hand . the ultimate dream .

[ i bet i woud cry. ]

over&out , see you after london.